Last month, I posted a blog about how I have gained weight, 20 pounds from my lowest weight post-twins. Here’s where I’m at now.
READ: I’ve gained weight
I have lost 3.5 lbs, and I think I have found my “set point” weight (google set point theory to learn more). I’m about a month in, and this is not much lower than where I started. It would be cool to say, “Wow guys, it’s only been a month and I’ve lost 10 pounds – I feel so awesome and great!” followed by a ton of emoticons and smiley faces.
No emojis here, I cannot lie. Here’s what I’ve learned about myself on this weight loss journey:
- I find it super annoying when people are overly bubbly about weight loss (I just do)
- 10 lbs in a month is not realistic for me (the disclaimer on every Weight Watchers ad says 1-2 lbs a week is healthy and reasonable, they have a ton of dietitians, scientists and experts determining this rate of weight loss, so I trust it’s a good thing to follow)
- For me, weight loss is a slow process (slower than 1-2 lbs a week)
- This is no longer a numbers game to me
My goal is not a number, but a feeling. I want to feel good in my body and I guess 3.5 lbs less is where I feel good. Truth be told, I feel nearly 100% good in my body. I just know there are a few behaviors I need to tweak. Even so, the 3.5 lb loss is really meaningful to me because I did this without a plan, without a fad diet or cleanse (which I’ve never done anyway – they have never appealed to me).
I take all the credit for this 3.5 lb loss because I’ve been paying attention to how I feel when I eat, and why I eat, so every pound lost is because I have made a lifestyle change I know I can sustain for the long haul.
To lose weight, I’m not cutting out:
- sugar (which I love)
- alcohol (again, love it)
- dairy (cheese should be my middle name)
- carbs (I love to bake fresh bread and found an AMAZING cinnamon roll recipe last week – Cinnabon who?)
- anything I know will be unrealistic to avoid for the next (hopefully) 50+ years of my life
Also, I love food. I love the experience of eating and nourishing my body. Food is a celebration for me. I don’t want to deprive myself of this basic joy! I will not drastically change my lifestyle to fight a losing battle with an inanimate object: my bathroom scale. If the scale goes down, cool. And if the scale stays the same, cool.
I outlined 10 things I want to do to feel good in my body (which should help with weight loss) . I’ve executed almost 7 of them so far (more like 6.5). Here’s where I’m at:
1. Keep a mindful food diary to focus on eating when I’m actually hungry.
Half-way there: I have been keeping the diary, but I slack on the weekends and I need to pay attention to WHY I’m eating.
I need to ask myself, “What’s my intention?” Am I hungry? OK, proceed.
Am I bored? Anxious? Upset? Food is not the answer.
2. Step on the scale once a week.
Yes! Doing it.
I’m not super anxious about getting on the scale the way I used to be while on Weight Watchers. If it goes up, it’s an opportunity to look at my behaviors the past week (food diary and keeping a journal helps with reflection), and think about what I can work on moving forward.
Yes! This makes me so much calmer throughout the day which is huge when I am with three little girls who are constantly battling for my attention.
I picked this up from the library. Reading begins today.
5. Be OK with “just being.”
No – I am struggling here. I naturally like to multi-task. I pride myself on being awesome at time management and “doing it all.” BUT, I don’t need to do it all. I need to find a way to be OK with doing nothing. Suggestions are welcome!
6. Incorporate movement I enjoy into my life.
Yes! I have found a way to get a 25 minute walk into my daily routine. The twins love chilling in the bike trailer, so they are always up for bike ride after work.
7. Honor my body.
Yes! Check this one off BIG TIME. This came to a culmination when I decided I am just going to put on a bikini because why wait? My 4-year old daughter exclaimed I look so gooood in my bikini and said she hopes she can look like me some day. BEST. COMPLIMENT. EVER.
8. Sit down to eat dinner and pay attention to my meal.
Yes! I’ve asked my girls if they would like me to sit with them and they all nod YES. The fact they want me to sit and chat with them is precious and meaningful. Also, they see what I’m eating and they want to try it too. The bonus has been their willingness to try new foods off my plate (even though they have the same thing on their plate) like baked fish and spicier dishes. It tastes better when it’s on mama’s plate. It’s another great way to approach picky toddlers.
9. Put smaller/more realistic portions on my plate.
Nope, not there yet. I wait too long to eat and I’m so hungry I still pile the food on. Lesson learned: don’t wait until I’m starving to eat!
10. Appreciate this opportunity to get healthy again.
Yes! I like being able to focus on myself for good reasons instead of beat myself up for eating something I “shouldn’t have” or feeling badly for not having will power.
Will power is not how you lose weight; otherwise there wouldn’t be the current obesity epidemic or the billion dollar diet industry. We don’t fail at diets because of will power, diets fail us because they are ridiculous. Making lifestyle changes towards health is realistic and sustainable. I’m getting there.